Hello dear, I can understand your distress at the current situation. Your symptoms of anxiety, feeling of emptyness, feeling uneasy, loneliness, and low mood point towards a possible depressive episode. Hence my suggestion for you is to seek a consultation with a psychiatrist near you for comprehensive assessment and subsequent management. A detailed assessment would include detailed description of your symptoms, a medical evaluation, detailed psychological interview, and some investigations including blood and psychological tests as per requirement. Hence please take the next step towards improving your condition by a seeking a face to face in person consultation with a psychiatrist. Be well assured that your condition can be helped with proper guidance and a combination of medication and psychological intervention is likely to be well suited to your condition. Hope this helps you. Best wishes for your health and future.