Beloved soul,
Consciously or unconsciously we have learn many ways for self sabotage.
Inside you there is a Victimized part, it is sometimes associated with a childhood experience of fear, coming to believe that something is especially wrong with you. Victim is a strategy to squeeze out safety feeling also some affection from those who would otherwise not be paying attention. The moods mimic a false sense of insecurity in his life.
Next Steps
Work on your Emotional and temperamental part. Learn mindfulnes and psychotherapy process for managing emotions and understanding & letting go negative self beliefs for self and others.
Health Tips
Take charge of your Life now, have optimistic mind with postive self inner talk.