Hi
You don't have any psychosis but still it's good to consult a psychiatrist to rule out. It looks you lack or have low esteem, so u really need to work hard to cope up with the amount of stress u feel.
Next Steps
plz visit a psychiatrist.
Health Tips
learn some life saving skill like swimming or Marshall arts, learn music, join some course of your choice, keep yourself busy.
all the best,
thank you.