You seems to be confused between various aspects of your life. Most of the time when we r unable to organise the things properly we get confused and feel lost inbetween. It effects our relationships and our emotions. When our emotions are clogged we feel depressed and psychosomatic symptoms starts appearing.
Next Steps
Fix an appointment with psychologist so that you can get help and proper diagnosis can be done which will be followed by interventions and therapy sessions.
Health Tips
Make daily schedules and followw propely.