Hi.. I will be straight and to the point because that's what is needed. You must not get married to him immediately under any pressure, be it of family, societal, or emotional. Marriage is not about Love, please get this thing clear in your mind. It is the media (movies, music, stories, etc.) that tend to condition our mind into believing that marriage is about love. Your spouse is under no obligation to keep you happy. S/he is only obligated to fulfil the social, financial, emotional, sexual, & personal needs of the spouse & family they have raised. Based on what you have said, it seems you have already made up your mind & looking for reasons to rationalize it. It is completely okay to let a relationship go when it is not serving its purpose in your life but it is not okay to blame it on someone else. You can share what you feel with your partner and mutually decide on the future of your relationship. You can also choose to take a break to think more rationally and decide for yourself. In either case your partner is an independent individual who can anytime decide on what he want, or doesn't want. Your struggles in your career is also taking a toll on your mental health and since at some point of time this relationship used to serve as a safe space or a kind of rescue in your psycho-emotional life, you are feeling disappointed when it is no longer serving the same purpose. It is hard to accept our emotions in their crude form but at a latent level this is how they operate. That's why we can't be a slave to our emotions. We need to act based on what is right for ourselves and for those who we say we love.
Next Steps
Consult a Psychologist.
Interpersonal Relationship Counselling or Pre-Marital Counselling is required.
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