As you discribe your symptoms its seems to be ptsd and for immediate help you should consult psychiatrist

Hello It sounds like your mind and body have been staying in a prolonged state of fear and hyper-alertness. Panic attacks, anxiety returning with stress, nightmares, and childhood trauma getting triggered are signs that your nervous system may still be carrying unresolved emotional distress. Crying and meditation may provide temporary relief because they help release some emotional pressure, but deeper healing usually requires structured support and trauma-focused therapy. Please do not ignore this or try to handle it alone anymore. Anxiety and panic can become very exhausting when untreated, but they are treatable with the right combination of therapy, grounding techniques, emotional processing, and sometimes psychiatric support if needed. Try to reduce self-isolation, maintain sleep and meals regularly, and focus on calming the body first when triggered rather than fighting the thoughts. Reaching out for professional help now is an important and positive step, not a weakness. Connect for therapy Nine two six six seven two six zero six five

I can understand your pain, as you mentioned about some childhood trauma, if nature and severity of trauma is significant it can lead to PTSD and some of the things you mentioned are suggestive of that but for proper diagnosis you need detailed assessment.

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Hi, medicines and counseling can help. Consult online for treatment