Hello Friend, Good that you are seeking a help here. Don't hold on such negativity within in you. You need to ventilate your emotions, feelings and concerns to someone. Any such mental imbalance is just like a physical illness and can be cured through psychology sessions and few therapies.  When you are emotionally disturbed, don't take any hasty decisions. It's better to ask for help, you will find a solution, which you would have not thought about it. So don't delay. Take a help of professional  psychology expert directly or online for help in such suitations and you will find a solution. You will be alright soon. .