I think u are suffering from anxiety ,depression ,too much mental pressure and these all are mixed up with ur relationship problems. I think u have to evaluate some past history like ur childhood history,any long lasting mental grief,any abuse,history related any harrasment etc. All these info help a psychologist to find a proper way to deal ur problems.Consult psychologist online or offline immediately .

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My dear, I understand that right now your boyfriend seems like the entire world for you. I’m sure he’s a wonderful person that you have chosen. However, he is a human and is allowed to make mistakes, feel frustrated, and use his own methods to avoid further frustration. Try to understand this so that you stop having any insecurities about the relationship. Having said that, you have mentioned you get anxiety attacks. I believe it would be best for you to consult a psychologist and work on your self esteem. Working on your self esteem might help you resolve most of your issues.

I am able to understand how u must b feeling.  Not having a good relationship with a person u like can cause a lot of stress. But when the stress is lot to the extent of causing depression and anxiety it needs to be treated. Depression makes a person lose his confidence, motivation, interest reduces his concentration and potential. Anxiety causes bodily symptoms like palpitations sweating and tremors. V would need to know a few more details like ur sleep, appetite other situations that might make u anxious etc to give appropriate suggestions. Ur problem can be easily treated with counselling and if needed medications. U will be able to function better with it. Don't let ur problems affect ur personal or professional help. U need to consult a psychiatrist. U can also consult me online through the Practo chat option. Best wishes for speedy recovery!!