Greetings!
The symptoms you are listing are indicative of mood dysregulation and unable to tolerate distress.
You need to consult a psychiatrist asap.
Next Steps
Please consult a psychiatrist and also a psychologist, he/she will help you to work on emotions
Health Tips
when you get self - destructive thoughts , put a rubber band on your wrist, snap it slowly. take an icecube in your palm and squeeze it when angry. Take a pillow and scream in it. if you feel like crying, cry.