Hello sir, I can understand the distress you are through. I would not suggest you to manage the illness at home. Mental or any medical problem requires treatment and cannot be a managed at home. If affordability is an issue, I would suggest to seek treatment from a govt Hospital where the treatment is at free of cost. Even the medications is provided ay free of cost. You can approach the nearby govt health facility.
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