U need to speak to a psychotherapist asap .. and preferably to a marital discord counsellor .. u may call me on nine seven nine five three four five six seven eight.

Hello Friend, Good that you are seeking a help here. I can understand your suitation. I know you are going through a tough emotional battle and such thoughts are obvious to arise. You need to be emotional strong to while taking such critical decisions. Suggest you consult a marriage counselor to discuss your problem in details and find suitable methods to stabilize your mind. There is nothing called right or wrong decision, it's all about taking a decision on time and standby to it without any regret or guilty in future. .

For more clarity and assistance, I suggest you to consult a psychologist cum. MARRIAGE COUNSELOR in your city personally.