Rediscover Self Mental health services, Prahlad Nagar

Hi My self Alok pandey From Ayodhya please find the below my storry.

Depression is something that shows itself differently for everyone. There is no one person, or one story, or one experience that can make someone universally understand truly how depression alters the lives of those of us who suffer from it. I can’t make anyone understand how it is for everyone, but I can tell you how it alters my life, and maybe that will help people understand how all-encompassing it really is.

For me there are two main ways that my depression manifests itself when it breaks through the barriers I have set with the help of years of therapy and medication. There is the gut wrenching loneliness and near constant anxiety and then there is the checking out, the feeling nothing at all, the numbness. Sometimes I don’t know which is worse, but I will try to explain both.

The Loneliness and Anxiety:

In some ways I consider this step one of when my depression spikes because it always seems to come first. But I don’t consider it step one in levels of horribleness. Like I said above I really think that both ways my depression hits me are pretty awful and I couldn’t say which is worse.

You know that feeling you have in your gut when you are about to and/or really need to cry. While that is what it is like. All the time. I could be laughing and having a great time with my friends, which I often am because my friends are great, and yet in the back of my mind I feel more alone than ever and I just want to curl up into fetal position and cry. But I never can. I can’t go home and cry and then feel better, because it’s not like there is something to cry about, or really anything to be sad about. And it isn’t really sadness. It is complete solitude. It’s when my brain tells me that I am alone, that I can’t be loved, that no one really wants me around, andall that no one will understand me.

That is all because at the place I am in my life, no matter what I have been through in the past, or what my depression tries to make me believe I know that I can be loved, that I’m not alone and that I am wanted. And I know that because of the hard work I have done to get to that place in my life, and because of some of the amazing people in my life who make sure that I know that they are there for me, that they love me, and that they want to spend time with me.

But the idea that no one will ever truly understand who I am, or any of that. That is a little harder to dissuade myself from believing. Because as much as I can tell people what I went, and still go through and what goes through my mind, who can really understand me other than me. And that isn’t necessarily a bad thing, but the way my depression tells me it, it is a bad thing.

So there I am surrounded by people, very possibly having some of the best experiences of my life, feeling like I need to bawl, completely unable to, and nearly having an anxiety attack because I just want it to end.

And it is here where two things happen. It is here where I wish for and welcome the numbness because I don’t want to feel the all-encompassing loneliness and anxiety. It is also where I think about cutting.

I have not cut myself in three and a half years. And I know that it doesn’t solve my problems. I know that I shouldn’t and I don’t want to. Even when I want to I don’t want to.

But here, when I am feeling the all-encompassing loneliness which is the very last thing that I want to feel, I think about cutting because it lets me feel something else.

The physical act of cutting gives me something to think about and focus on, something other than that loneliness. And when I am not physically cutting, instead of thinking about how lonely I am and how that feeling will never end I think about the next time I can cut, or the most recent time I did.

And Then The Numbness:

I don’t really know how to explain this numbness. It is simply a period of time where I feel literally nothing. I happiness/normal emotion around friends, not always very well, and when I am alone I just don’t care about anything.

This is when my grades often fall because I don’t care about anything, including school, and therefore school work.

And then, sometimes I just want to feel something, anything, and so that is when I think about cutting. I think about cutting because it gives me something to feel, something I can control, but still feel.

The numbness comes because I can’t handle what I’m thinking and feeling, because it is too much for me to deal with, so I shut everything off so I don’t have to feel it.

In some ways, cutting transitions me back into feeling. But again, cutting, NOT A SOLUTION, NOT HEALTHY.

And something that I no longer do.

Now, for the past three and a half years, whenever I think of cutting, which I still do. It is still my first thought in either of these situations, I instead do one of the many things that I have come to know to help me cope.

For example, I force myself to spend more time with my friends, because I know that the loneliness will pass and I can talk myself out of feeling lonely when I am not physically alone.

I read/watch anything romantic. I pretend that I am one of the characters, and then I feel what they feel instead of what I am feeling (or preventing myself from feeling).

I am absolutely delighted to write this for my therapist, who has consistently displayed exceptional skills, knowledge, and compassion throughout our sessions. Her dedication and genuine concern for my well-being have truly made a significant impact on my life.

From the very beginning, it was evident that Nupur possessed an extensive understanding of various therapeutic techniques and approaches. Her wealth of knowledge allowed her to tailor our sessions to my specific needs, ensuring that I felt heard and understood.

One of the most remarkable qualities is her unwavering compassion. She consistently creates a safe and non-judgmental space where I can freely express my thoughts and emotions. Her empathy and understanding have provided me with immense comfort and reassurance, allowing me to delve deeper into my struggles and find solace in the process.

Moreover, what truly sets her apart is her dedication to my progress. She not only helps me navigate through challenges but also actively encourages and supports my growth. Her unwavering commitment to my improvement has motivated me to work harder and embrace positive change. I genuinely feel that she genuinely cares about my well-being and is invested in my journey towards healing. I wholeheartedly recommend her to anyone seeking professional help, as she is an outstanding therapist who consistently demonstrates her expertise and genuine care for her clients.

Counselling is not easy, there are a lot of thoughts that come in one's mind. Having the courage to share those details can be painstaking but i assure you, you can expect professionalism from dr. Nupur. Once you start to share your problems please realise how the counselling is helping you. For instance in my first session i opened up about everything pertaining then. This gave ma'am the clearity of the problem i was facing. With her help i could cure in 2-3 sessions but unfortunately for me the ilness returned than i had only the option to manage my symptoms be still presentable to the society and lead a encouraging life. In the ongoing sessions i tend to return to the problem but everytime i talk about it, my views or opinion change on the matter. There have been instances where i have thought that no one can help me or understand me but Dr. Nupur has come to my rescue. I feel encouraged to attend counselling and i tell myself that i just need to talk to someone who is more understanding then even my family members.

** ***** ** ** ********* ******** *************1.At the outset Nupur s very very friendly .

2.Nupur is very cooperative.

3.Nupur is quiet adjusting in time schedules..

4.Nuor has great insight in to psychological problems .

5.Nuprs subject knowledge is indepth & very good both theoretical & practical.

6.As an anxiety sufferer if the psycologist is having above qualities it becomes very easy for sufferers to share the problems & get solution..

7.Sufferings have to be borne by sufferer, but if the psycologist is cooperative & patient it is BIG help.

8.I have had quiet a few sessions with Nupur & find her listening to.my problems & giving solution & motivating me so that I move towards the solution gradually

9.MsNupurs attitude & approach & her indepth knowledge &vast experience of the subject is the biggest asset of Ms.Nupur...

10..I recommend others also to take advantage of Ms Nupurs expertise with her vast experience & help themselves move towards a better & healthy future..

More over its a wonderful service to mankind..

God bless her in this endeavor....

.

I recently trained under Ms. Nupur *** * ***** *** ** ** **** ************ ** *** ****** she treated all her clients with utmost care, positive regard, and was a thorough professional. her approach and understanding of therapeutic interventions like CBT, and Mindfulness training were apt, detailed and commendable. I observed ms. Nupur to be very compassionate and passionate towards her field of study and her clients. She always took out time to help out all her students personally, even though it may have been difficult for her to find the time to do so. it was a brilliant learning opportunity for me.

More than anything else a very important quality that i look for in a therapist is how pleasant they are as a human being and how safe i feel about disclosing my most intimate feelings and fears with them. Dr. Nupur gave me that feeling of safety and she has a warm nurturing personality that makes it super easy for you to confide in her. She is simple yet impactful as a therapist. I felt heard when I spoke to her. I’ve had quite a few experiences before where the pscyhologists have taken personal calls in the middle of a session and i have felt like the they were too busy or had too much of a packed schedule to hear me out but that was not the case here and that meant a lot to me personally.

Ma'am was very compassionate and empathetic towards helping me. She was very understanding, she's an amazing listener. She understood even the things I wouldn't say. It was easy for me to interact with ma'am, she could transmit useful information to me which was really very helpful. She has a great and inspiring problem solving quality, she understood everything I was going through. She was really very patient throughout. Her desire to help others is really remarkable, I could see that. She was soft and gentle. Thank you so much ma'am, though I can't thank enough.

I took 3-4 sessions with Nupur Ma'am over a period of few months. She really helped to de-clutter my thoughts, and gave a very comfortable environment to talk it out. Conversations with her helped me to understand myself better, and helped me to deal with difficult situations and over-thinking.

She at times also gave her extra time (session spilling over an hour), adding a personal touch beyond just the professional relationship, which I really admire.

Talking to her really made me feel lite, and helped me to deal with situations in a better way.

Highly recommend her :)

The Psychologist aided me effectively to navigate through my emotional distress issues and the possible trigger factors that might be responsible for the same. The non judgmental attitude adopted by her throughout the session helped me a great deal in sharing my concerns without any inhibition. Her on point assessment and the future course of action devised by her has helped me greatly in coming to terms with my anxiety issues and working towards achieving the best mental state possible.Overall, her Counselling Sessions are highly recommended for people grappling with mental health issues and who are actively seeking some professional assistance to deal with same.

So, I started my therapy when I was at my hardest phase.

I was depressed and isolated from my peer friends family and everyone.

My self confidence was lost, I was lost myself. I had rejected everywhere in both social life and profession life.

Then somehow I met her.

She didn't really treats her patient as patient but as a friend.

She helped through everything, at college, studies, my relationship, my family. If I was at 0 she pushed to extent where now I at 60-70 of my mental health.

I would highly recommend her if you are looking for a therapist.

Anyways, thank you so much for helping me through.