Tired of everything. Help me please.

Don't want to live my life the way I'm, sometimes Feel like killing myself, want to leave everything and run very far away, I feel I'm so much deep into this shit hole that I can never come up,I've lost my soul, don't feel anything anymore, I'm a failure, I don't have the strength to fight anymore,I know this is not what I wanted, but still I can't come out of it,I think everyone hates me, everyone loves me for their own selfish reasons, I keep on doing things that I don't want to,I hate myself for what I've become, my family doesn't like me, I don't have any true friends never had a true friend,every men I've known or has been a friend has slept with me, they just want to sleep with me, use me, I don't feel like doing anything, just sit in a dark corner,my only true friend was my God when I grew up, but he too betrayed me, let all these happen in my life,I don't trust him anymore, I feel he too wants this to happen.. I'm all lost, I'm empty, I'm hollow... I need help, help me please..