I am having difficulty to get married.

I was in long distance relationship twice both are narcissists. And have faced many difficulties with one after other. I have felt like soul loss and feeling lost for many days and months. Then I have retrieved myself back with meditations. Now my parents looking for alliance. And I could not accept Anyone genuinely. Now I got fixed with one man. He told he loves me but I tried to fall in love with him. But from past 20 days he is not talking to me. I feel like he is afraid of getting problm if he talks with me. But I actually wants to talk to him for making me falling in love. But I couldn't do that. Do I need to marry someone who I don't love..and i don't feel attracted to him also. What shall.i.do? I am.very anxious that he didn't spoke with me these many days and I am afraid that whether he won't listen to me in future also. I need a partner who listens to me and who can really be my friend .but I don't think this man will be my friendly type of husband. Please help