Feeling Depressed. Am to 9 a.

I opted for CA course on 2018, i had completed my training for of 3 years in May 2022, during the span of 5 years i did not studied and never appeared for exams too, got completed my training of 3 years. I am a very lazy person in study, doing work or something in life. This laziness has costed wasting of precious time which i can not go back again. After viewing my current financial and family condition, i had started to try to study on morning 3 hours ( 6.am to 9 a.m) and evening 2 hours(10 pm to 12 pm). I had started to early wake up in morning on 17.11.2022. Sometime get demotivated and feels like i cannot do that and all it all leads to laziness again. Till yesterday i had studied in morning and evening schedules on time. But yesterday i had a lots of thoughts, can i pass the exam, can i do this, can i make a good career in life. Today i woke up in morning in time, but i had a sleep feeling during my study and i could not study well and i feel unproductive and demotivated again.