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Hi my self dinesh.i have using weed for past 3year..now i'm graduated two years before.i thought to quit weed so many times but I can't.i have spoiling my life to enjoy.i had feelings to go to job take care of family.i can't focus on my career i was job less from my graduation.i tring to do something daily but i can't if i do na it will continue for two days only the next day i feel i can't do anything with my career.i really need to get rid of this bullshit now days really hating my self what i have done these day..i will prepare for interview but in mind i have insecurity problem..if i prepare having a fear to attend the interviews.i was wasting my parents money..i have borrowed some money from my friends I can't give it back now.i was ignoring my self my closet persons.i feel very guilty about it..cant think positive.my mind full og negative thoughts.want can i do can i go for consulting psychiatry