Sailing on too many boats. Probably you did not consider setting priorities in your life and be focused.  At the moment the challenge to that you need to work on is your studies to have a platform and stability for yourself.  Thus getting into a job and become financially  independent.  Can you put your marriage issue to back burner till such time? If so you . a clarity. No parents will prefer to entrust their daughter to a college dropout  or still pursuing education or unemployed person.  Love is definitely a sacred feeling,  practically you need many other things to lead a happy married life. 

You are too young to worry so much . Sometimes situations lead us to drops, gaps or educational halts . That cannot be the end of life . What you Polack is proper planning . Maybe because you are overthinking , you are not able to resolve the entangled thoughts and streamline them . Don’t waste more time . Sit down with a pen and paper and start writing all that you plan in life .