Indeed, it is a difficult situation which you been handling better..
I could see few expectations and that is causing the kind of irritation and frustration..
Maybe due to that all the time, yiu may be feeling little low and lonely..
Next Steps
It is better to seek a professional support to overcome this issue..
Consult a psychological Counselor..
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