Hi thanks for query, I understand your situation, the difficult of handling the thought process. There are few things that need to focus on, 1. Thoughts - this linking to 2. Emotions 3. Strengths or challenges which you're not aware off.
If these things are affecting your daily life, then you can visit psychologist for assessment and guidance, further require we will be assisting you to psychiatrist. Take care.
Next Steps
Visit psychologist at the earliest.
Health Tips
When there is some emotional distress, then there will be disturbance in the thought process.