Hello, The description provided by you here of sleep difficulties, crying episodes, breathing difficulties, negative thinking etc all are indicative of a possible depression with anxiety symptoms. In such a scenario a detailed assessment including physical, psychological, and psychosocial areas will be required. Hence my suggestion for you is to seek a consultation with a psychiatrist near you for comprehensive assessment.. However please be assured that your condition can be helped with proper assessment and management. Depression and anxiety are common mental health disorders and can be effectively treated. Usually a combination of medication and psychological intervention is well suited for such conditions. Hope this helps you. Best wishes for your health and future.