Hello Friend, Good that you are seeking a help here. It's quite difficult for a any working professional to sacrifice the career and do the stuff which is not interesting. While you may have taken this decision to take care of your child, but underneath this compromise will be triggering thoughts that can cause depression and recollect of unnecessary old memories etc.
Better take a professional counselling support to understand your emotional stress in detail and recommendation to cope up such emotional battle. . In such open discussions, you can also explore other potential or opportunities that you can peruse to balance your career desires.
Don't hesitate to consult. Choose online consultation as it will be convenient and easy to discuss.
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Feel free to reach out to me online through Practo for further detailed evaluation and recommendation that you can follow practically to overcome this problem. Be positive. You will be alright soon.