Hello, it is most unfortunate to hear about your ailing grand mom. As far as the recent problems resurfacing un your life due to use of contraceptive pills, let me inform you that birth control pills usually affect the blood levels of other medicines. In your case most likely due to increased metabolism of anti depressents you may be having lower blood levels than needed for having effective control on depression and anxiety.
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Ideally to have the earlier effects with antidepressants without loosing the contraceptive benefits of birth control pills., it is advised to make slight adjustmet to dose of other medicines. Clonopin, wellbutrin and risperidone dose needs to be increased. But u need to consult you psychiatrist for exact titration of same.
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Hope this helps you. Please feel free to connect in case of any further queries.