Suicide is not answer to any issue of life.  So I wud advice that you take professional help.  For your problem Past Life Regression Therapy seems the best answer.  Though an initial intake session is required to assess deeply.  So 2 sessions can give answer to all your questions.  So find a psychologist who is trained in PLR like me who can assist you with issues you r dealing with.  To heal your anxiety follow the following links PMR - https://youtu.be/ihO02wUzgkc When done regularly twice a day, this exercise gradually alleviates the anxiety and is a sure shot method to relieve anxiety. But should be done religiously. Make a self rating scale of 0 to 10 where 0 = absence of anxiety , 10 = highest level of anxiety experienced. Each time you set yourself to do this exercise - note your anxiety level on 0 to 10 scale in a copy. Do the rating before exercise and after the exercise. Twice daily. Thus in a day u get 4 readings. Tai Chi - https://youtu.be/cEOS2zoyQw4 Tai chi is a form of exercise specifically to direct your hyper energies to slow down and channelize your anxious and stress energy to Love Energy. It is a tested and tried exercise to alleviate stress and anxiety. Anxiety Healing Music - https://youtu.be/Ck3GjflZplg Mantra to Improve Focus - https://youtu.be/oreeaofi4Bg OM jaap is one such mantra which allows your vibrations to become positive and aligns you to cosmic rhythm itself for ease in life.

hi please take help. have a counseling session. its indicative of depression discuss your concern in detail with a mental health professional consult with me or any psychologist for therapy and counseling connect with me through practo all the best follow my page on facebook juhi parashar clinical psychologist for updates on mental issue.