Hello, Your description here is quite brief, however I understand from your narrative that you have significant interpersonal difficulties with your in laws. You also report of se depressive symptoms. However what worries me most is the occurrence of suicidal ideation... I would strongly suggest and urge you to seek a consultation with a psychiatrist near you for comprehensive assessment and management. Please be assured that your condition can be helped with proper guidance and treatment.. Do not hesitate, do not delay in seeking help. Discuss with your parents and if possible spouse about such thoughts. Please try not to be alone till you seek help. Hope this helps you. Best wishes for your health and future..