Please seek immediate psychiatrist help. Your condition is completely treatable with medicines and counselling. Your husband will not be happy seeing you dead.. his daughter's mother is no more..in fact nobody will be happy with you doing that.. so drop the idea of ending your precious life for the sake of husband's happiness. Instead, you are a very good mother because in spite of being so much emotional disturbance, you are caring for your daughter and thinking about her future. Definitely you will be a loving mother once you overcome the present situation. There are other options available to make your husband's life happy, your death is definitely not the answer!

Just as high blood sugar is a symptom of diabetes, depressive thoughts or death wishes are symptoms of depression. Just as diabetes is due to a deficiency id insulin, depression is due to a deficiency of certain chemicals in the brain. That is the reason it gets better with medication and CBT. However, as depression can be serious due to suicidal thoughts, medication should be started first and CBT can be done once the suicidal thoughts disappear. In this day and age there is no reason why you should not seek help. People come for help for Sleeping problems, lack of concentration so definitely you can take help for this. A lot of us can be difficult at times. It is not a reason to consider suicide. Do get help

Hi, It sure seems like you have a lot of guilt and frustration inside of you which is causing such negative emotions. You could possibly be suffering from depression which can lead to such negative and severe thoughts. This also leads to poor decision making as there is no emotional stability and hence, a person can end up with regrets in long run. So don't end up taking such severe steps for something which can be resolved over time. Its good you show a genuine concern for your daughter, its not fair for her to be without her own mother.

Please do consult a psychologist immediately. Sometimes it is just want of clarity which causes this confusion.

HI, I can understand your emotional disturbance, feeling of hopelessness, frustration and guilt about yourself. Is there anything that's bothering you so much, in which you don't have hope for yourself. In life there are many things we need to learn, understand, face the difficulties with confidence. for every problem ending life is not the solution, every body/ human being has problem in different level, if you are anxious or frustrated of anything kindly approach your loved ones. I can understand all issues cannot be shared with the family members, sometime friends also. You can visit the counsellors/ psychologist for any kind of emotional support. Due to feeling of helplessness and hopelessness your negative thoughts are increasing and you are not able to decide. before it get worse take help of counsellors. at this point you need a emotional support. Any child require mother affection, no matter the child might be close to father, but still they crave for mother. So stay positive, give child your support and affection. don't take any severe step, there are many counsellors in this platform and also in Bangalore. take a help from them.