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Hello, Thank you for sharing your feelings so honestly. It sounds emotionally exhausting to constantly struggle with pressure, self-expectations, fear of failure, and the feeling that if one day is not fully productive, everything feels ruined. This kind of “all-or-nothing” thinking can gradually increase stress, anxiety, hopelessness, self-criticism, and burnout over time. You also mentioned that you were previously a high-achieving and ambitious student, so the current changes in motivation, consistency, confidence, and scores may feel even more painful and disappointing for you emotionally. Please do not ignore these feelings anymore, especially since you mentioned feeling depressed and having suicidal thoughts. You do not have to handle this alone. At this stage, it would be important to: • Reach out to a trusted family member, friend, or supportive person instead of isolating yourself • Take professional help from a psychologist or psychiatrist as early as possible • Avoid putting pressure on yourself to be “perfect” every single day • Focus on smaller and realistic study goals instead of extreme productivity expectations • Practice grounding, slow breathing, and proper sleep/rest during overwhelming moments With the right support and therapy, these patterns can improve gradually. Please be kind to yourself during this difficult phase. Warm regards, Dr Namita Ranjan Counselling Psychologist

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Hi, You're going through intense stress, feeling overwhelmed, and struggling with "all or nothing" thinking. It's crucial to seek immediate mental health support—talk to a counselor or therapist. You're not alone, and help is available. Prioritize your mental health first.

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Hi, I understand. What you are experiencing reflects a pattern of intense internal pressure where expectations toward yourself have become heavier than your current capacity. When the mind operates in extremes—either “perfect” or “nothing”—even small disruptions can feel discouraging and may lead to avoidance. This is often how stress and self-demand begin to interact over time. When this cycle continues for a longer period, it can affect mood, energy, and motivation, making even routine study feel emotionally draining. The sense of being stuck, along with self-critical thoughts, often develops gradually when rest, support, and emotional processing are missing alongside sustained academic effort. This is something that can be worked through with the right kind of support and structured guidance. Given the level of distress you are describing, it is important to speak with a mental health professional or a trusted support person. Having that support can help you stabilise emotionally and gradually rebuild a healthier, more sustainable study rhythm—one that reduces pressure rather than adds to it.

It seems to be anxiety and depression issues. It needs to be treated asap otherwise it may get complicated. It can be well treated with counseling sessions and homeopathic medicine effectively and without any side effects. It needs to be treated in a holistic approach for complete recovery. You need an expert Psychologist who is a good homeopathic physician.

Thank you for sharing this so honestly. What you’re going through is very real and more common than you think—especially among high achievers. First, I want to say this clearly: You are not lazy. You are stuck in a pattern. And patterns can be changed. What is happening with you? You are experiencing “All-or-Nothing Thinking”: “If my day doesn’t start perfectly → the whole day is wasted” “If I can’t study properly → I’ll do it later” “Later” keeps getting delayed → guilt → anxiety → avoidance This creates a loop: High expectations → small disruption → frustration → avoidance → guilt → low score → more pressure You mentioned feeling suicidal, this is importance concern , serious and you don’t have to handle this alone. Please reach out to: A trusted person (parent/friend) A mental health professional nearby Or a helpline in your area immediately if thoughts feel strong Your life is much bigger than an exam.

I’m really glad you reached out. What you’re describing is actually more common than you think, especially in students who have been high achievers and set very high expectations for themselves. This “all-or-nothing” pattern can make even a slightly unproductive day feel like a complete failure, which then leads to avoidance, anxiety, and a cycle that becomes very hard to break over time. After a few years, it can start affecting mood, confidence, and even lead to thoughts like the ones you mentioned.

This is all-or-nothing thinking that makes you restart instead of continuing. Try accepting imperfect days and focus on small progress rather than a perfect start

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Hi, I hear how difficult this has been for you. The “all-or-nothing” pattern you’re describing is very common in students who are high achievers—it’s not a lack of ability, it’s a pattern that can be changed. For now, don’t aim for perfect study days. Just start small—30–45 minutes is enough. Even a little consistency is better than stopping completely. Also, since you mentioned feeling low and having suicidal thoughts, please don’t handle this alone. Try to speak to a psychologist or a trusted person in your life as soon as possible. You’re not stuck forever—this can improve step by step.