Hi thanks for you approach to us. though this not the place to discuss in detail. I would like to give few suggestions to you, many things in our life goes out of our hand, some we can gain and other things we can't due to circumstances or people around. understand yourself the reason that you are not able to reach your goal, work on your weakness and strength, whether it's out of your expectation, in which you couldn't accept the situation. yes you seems to stress out or disturbed. please visit any psychologist in your place, get the guidance to handle your situation. take care, don't lose hope. stay positive.