Seeking therapy for OCD is the first and most important step. Obsessions are intrusive and distressing thoughts that cause extreme anxiety to the person. They also start feeling fearful of the consequences of people knowing about your thoughts and/ or your fears coming true. Disassociation is a form of coping mechanism which may help you relieve your fears and anxiety in the short term but would only strengthen your fears in the long term.
Next Steps
Consult for assessment and intervention of OCD
Health Tips
Set small goals everyday of resisting your compulsions or delaying them. This is best done with the help of a clinical psychologist. Reach out for help.