Hello,
I'm really sorry you're going through this. From what you’ve described- persistent low mood, lack of energy, passive suicidal thoughts, and increasing self-harm urges- these are signs of major depressive disorder that may have reached a severe level.
You're not alone, and this is treatable. The voice in your head telling you to give up is a symptom, not the truth. Many people have felt this way and have recovered with the right support.
Next Steps
a. Please seek urgent help from a psychiatrist or visit the nearest mental health emergency service.
b. If you are in danger of self-harm, contact a helpline or a trusted person immediately and avoid staying alone.
c. A psychiatrist may consider antidepressant treatment, therapy (CBT or DBT), or even short-term hospitalization to keep you safe and stabilize your symptoms.
d. Non-judgmental supportive psychotherapy and medication monitoring will be key.
Health Tips
1. Don’t isolate yourself—reach out to at least one person, even a friend or family member.
2. Keep in mind that recovery takes time, and feeling worse before things get better is part of the process for many.
3. If talking feels too hard, write things down and show it to your therapist or doctor.