As per your symptoms you are suffering from depression with anxiety disorder. A more detailed evaluation is needed. Also you will benefit from counseling and if needed medicines.

I will be brief as I'm traveling. Yes you need treatment. Please consult a psychiatrist in person. You will recover completely and begin to enjoy life once again. On your part please attend personality development program such Ravishankars Art of Living or of Ramakrishna Math. But do not neglect your treatment. Take care.. Smile😊

Maybe. As u had tried to handle ur emotions at various stages at various level,  I think a professional support might help you as you could see yourself and ur circumstances at a different perspective.  Which might ease ur feelings.

Hello, Very good to here that your mother has recovered and regained her health and wellness. Please consider that your mother had an ailment pertaining to her heart and a professional intervention by a cardiologist lead to her recovery, similarly your ailment if mind will require a professional intervention by a mental health professional (a psychiatrist or a clinical psychologist). Seeking help is definitely the way out to recovery and wellbeing for you. As per your description it seems that you are suffering from significant mood and anxiety condition like depression, panic disorder etc. The psychiatrist will do a comprehensive for you including medical and psychological causes. The best course of management is likely to be combination of psychological intervention and medication. However you must discuss your discomfort regarding medication with your psychiatrist before progressing further. Hope this helps you. Best wishes for health and future.