This problem of mine started 3-4 years back..with the beginning of my pubetry i wanted to became a alpha male so i started avoiding abnormal people more accurately the people like homos and lesbians.it was ok but after days i joined a new tution where i have a crush on a girl.the girl was beautiful and other boys was also in a crush with her one day they unitedly by calling there friends beat me though i was strong enough but i was defeated by there joint attack and i was helpless also because then i was only 15+ and the tution was in their locality.Which made me shame of myself...it made my mind full of fear and i started carrying weapons like knife though i was not a antisocial and it also broke my beliefs in god and good people always wins...and i started becoming hyperactive so a psychiatrist gave me medicines of adhd.after few days i suffered from ocd there panic always used to go with me the places i visited.doctor gave me ocd medicines i am taking it for 3years but its of no use