It seems to be OCD CONSULT with me or any psychologist for therapy and counseling online or in person All the best

Its really nice that you are realising your problem and seeking help there are many who doesn't even realise their problem. Don't decide anything by yourself. Please consult any professional for your medicine. So please consult and let him/her decide. You need medicines along with counselling any person can show the way and it's only you who can change everything infact we are capable of everything .every type of energy lies within us what requires is to channelise it in right direction and change in perception. We can't change the things arround us, what we can do is to make ourself such that we don't get affected by that. We can't control the rain but we can take umbrella to minimise its effect. Things will go as it is, lion eats deer it's cycle we can't do anything and neither can say what's fault of deer ,so without considering so much things why this is happening, what is going on .etc. Just focus on yourself its your right to be happy and live for yourself only and for your happiness ,if you will not make yourself happy then others can't.if you need my help you can contact me online also.

I am feeling so much happy to see such clean and tidy activities in your daily life. Please accept yourself as you are and at the same time accept others as they are. Be prepared for both approval and disapproval from anyone in this world. Protect your happiness all the time, don't let others dynamic opinions decide your happiness. You are a quite good woman like every other being who have their unique qualities, but make sure these qualities should not take away your peace. Work on your emotions, thought patterns, and happiness.

Do you have any tension or negative thoughts in your mind?

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I suggest you to consult a psychological Counselor for a therapy..

Consult a psychiatrist immediately. You need to take medicine for few months