I am able to understand your current situation. You seem to be suffering from few depressive symptoms. However more clarity is needed regarding your actual problem. I would be more than happy to help you with that. It is easily manageable. Some counselling and if needed medical help might be useful for you. You can directly consult with me through Practo. Discussions will be held confidential. Online chat consultation is available.

Mental health issues like Depression is due to disturbance in the neurochemicals in d brain. So u need not blame urself or nyone els for it. However dese r treatable conditions. Seek help at d earliest for better outcome. If time is a constraint den consult a psychiatrist online.