I've been having constant negative thoughts including self bullying, self pity, self doubt, insecurity, loss of confidence due to which I'm not able to use my full potential. I'm very energetic, action oriented person and a go-getter in general but due to these negative thoughts, my energy is used up in the wrong direction and I'm not able to do my core jobs/work. This happened to me during my childhood and growing up years too. I also have had a series of suicidal thoughts in the past.