Hi,
Your repeated negative tests already confirm you’re safe, but your mind keeps looping on “what if.” That’s anxiety talking, not reality. What helps is learning to break that cycle. through therapy, grounding skills, and gently challenging the fear instead of chasing more tests. You’re not alone in this, and it is treatable
It’s been 1.5 years now, and the result is negative, so you don’t have have the constant worry.
Next Steps
Understand the facts: repeated negative tests after the window period rule out
HIV. Knowing this helps loosen fear’s grip.
Notice the “what if” thought, label it as anxiety, then gently redirect rather than argue with it.
Resist checking, Googling, or retesting. Each test fuels the loop. Practice sitting with the discomfort.
Use slow breathing, 5-senses check, or journaling when panic about HIV spikes
Work on anxiety management and obsessive thought patterns with CBT or similar structured therapy.
Health Tips
When the “what if” thought comes, gently say to yourself, this is anxiety, not truth.
Limit Googling or retesting, it feels like relief but only feeds the fear.
Write the worry down, then set it aside; your brain learns it doesn’t need to keep repeating it.
Stay anchored: notice 5 things you see, 4 you touch, 3 you hear, 2 you smell, 1 you taste. It pulls you back to the present.
Build calm routines walks, prayer, journaling, or deep breathing to remind your body it is safe.