I have very unstable mindset, get easily influenced by my surroundings and I'm not able to change it completely. I try to change, by reading books and watch videos and the change doesn't last for long. I keep doing the same thing and feel the same way. Become a victim and feel miserable when someone at work place mock at me. I can't let it go, even though I keep reminding myself to get over it. My breathing gets heavier and heart beat raises and feels like I have something heavy placed on heart.