Hi. I'm sorry you are having to undergo such a weighing down event in your life. Especially something that just doesn't seem to loosen its grip on your emotions. Please don't lose hope, there is help available. Really glad that you have taken the first step by reaching out
Next Steps
You need to get in touch with a psychiatrist and have a detailed discussion of this issue that you seem to be unable to let go of. He will recommend therapy and medication( if the situation requires it).
Health Tips
*there is always a solution, you just need to find someone to walk you to it*