I can see that you recently experienced a very harsh situation. It is natural for a person to feel overwhelmed and distressed in such moments. You have written that despite your affection, you want to act in a manner which is good for you as well as the other person. It is appreciable you reached out for help. Even so, it can be painful and isolating to navigate through such moments. Connecting with a counselor can help you feel supported. You will have the chance to work on your feelings of anxiety, as well as learn how one can move on from certain relationships. A counselor can also provide you with a non-judgemental space to share your heart. I hope this helps.
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