I'm sorry to hear that! From your brief history, it is evident that you're suffering  from some anxiety disorder but we have to clarify first what exactly you're feeling, so that appropriate treatment can be planned for you.  I'll recommended that you take consultation, so that everything is discussed in detail and appropriate treatment is initiated.

It sounds like you're experiencing a cycle of negative thinking and worry about bad things happening to you. Here are a few steps you might consider: Acknowledge Your Feelings: It's important to recognize and accept your feelings without judgment. It's okay to feel anxious or worried sometimes. Challenge Negative Thoughts: Try to question the validity of your negative thoughts. Are there concrete reasons for your fears, or are they based on assumptions? Consider whether there's evidence supporting your fears or if they're more likely to be anxious thoughts.

Need to consult for detailed evaluation

Could you please clarify what bad things you are afraid might happen. Also, it'll be easier to understand your state if you can elaborate what anxious thoughts are coming to your mind and if it is affecting your day to day functions.