I feel you need a proper psychiatric consultation and detailed workup on your symptoms as well as on your state of mind..many a times it recovers with only counselling while sometimes you need both counselling plus medicines..
Still many factors are unclear from your question i would suggest personal talk with a psychiatrist..
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Consult a psychiatrist for proper diagnosis and treatment
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Just don’t be afraid of this state of mind...you just need proper guidance with which you can come out of this very soon