Difficult state to be in. It is a conflict between what you want to do and what society expects you to do. Societal pressure is not easy to endure. Your current emotional state is arising due to this conflict.
Next Steps
you need to try and look at it from an objective point of view and decide what advice would you give if your friend is in the same state.
an expert help can be taken to analyse this conundrum but you have to eventually take your own decision. there is no ready made solution to your problem
Health Tips
don't take any decision hurriedly and emotionally. spend sometime on it and then only decide what direction you want to take