Dear why so critical about yourself and holding on and nurturing guilt feelings. no one is perfect . everybody has flaws. most important thing is identifying your shortcomings, accepting it and to work on it to improve oneself .YES life is like a wave with ups and downs . sometimes things does not happen as per our wish and these things are beyond our control. you have lots of negative thoughts about your self , future . you have signs suggestive of clinical depression

Dear patient, I would like to consult you any trained psychotherapist for knowing about root cause of your problem which is contributing your low self esteem. Sometimes type of upbringing during childhood and adolescent stage has very major impact in deciding one's personality and self esteem. So discuss your problem in detail with a psychotherapist or take medications if you have any social anxiety disorder.

Hello dear, I can empathize with you...Just relax as there is solution for everything....Yes you need help as you appear to be distressed and you are not able to function as before.. particularly in relationships and focus on work...I advise you to talk to someone close about it..Take an appointment with nearby Psychiatrist for detailed evaluation and Management of the case...See many times in life we need someone to help or guide... Don't hesitate..It will be worth..Feel free to reach us for further queries. Regards Dr Srikant Sharma Anandam Psychiatry Centre New Delhi