Hi, I am feeling a lot sad, upset, numb or empty. I am in a relationship but that also feels empty not happiness. I am living with my family and I still feel lonely. I sometimes feel over excited like a lot and that same day or in a few mins I feel a lot tired and just want to sleep. I feel like crying just sitting and working and sometimes I feel like laughing out loud. I am having suicidal thoughts also but I control them as few years back I tried attempting and was afraid also. I keep my thoughts in check but still not able to figure out how I can sort things? I don't know what I have and why I am feeling this, sometimes I feel I am only pretending to do this and making trouble for everyone around me. I feel anxiety, restlessness and numbness. Please help me with this to figure out exactly what is happening? I am not able to sort my thoughts also. I don't even know what I want to say or think now.