Hello. It seems by your description that you are either an introvert person or are experiencing social anxieties. These anxieties are faced when we meet unfamiliar people or find ourselves in an unfamiliar environment. Because we find this envt. challenging in terms of social performance. We assume that people expect us to be socially bold and outward but we know deep down that we are of reserved nature and therefore hesitate to open up. This builds expectations and we somehow fail to meet these demands. The sense of failure develops and we feel inferior to others. We compare ourselves to others and their personalities and feel disappointed that we can never become like them. We feel people can never like us and we feel embarassed because of our behaviors or personalities. To cure this, you first need to understand that your personality needs change and you have to believe in the fact that there is a lot of scope for change. There is lot that you can do. You just lack certain skills which makes you feel anxious and uncomfortable among others. These feelings and thoughts that you have shared are outcomes of these smills that you lack. To develop these skills, you need to work on yourself bit by bit. Assess the situations which make you feel anxious on a daily basis and rate them from mild to severe. Learn to expose yourself in these situations and develop  behaviors that may reduce your anxiety. PRACTICE and REPEAT, and you will see the results witht time. Better you take the help of a clinical psychologist or a counseling psychologist for fast and guided changes.

Hi, I feel you think a lot about what others think about you making you conscious when you try to get social. The first thing to do is try to like yourself. It means you need to accept yourself the way you are and love yourself. What difference does it makes if anybody criticizes or does not like you? It makes no difference. There are few people around you who like you the way you are, just try to see and recognise them. No one is perfect. So accept the imperfections you have and others too. The next thing is we think many times that people are looking at us or thinking about us when we are at any public place or social gathering. But the reality is people are not thinking of us much but we are busy dwelling on what they think. So just remind yourself always that all are busy in their own worlds and stop caring about what others think. So stop criticizing yourself and you would be more happy and confident.