To alleviate your core anxiety kindly do this exercise -
PMR - https://youtu.be/ihO02wUzgkc
Anxiety Healing Music - https://youtu.be/Ck3GjflZplg
Next Steps
Also contact a Psychologist to undo the root cause of ur suicidal thoughts. You can search for me online to be in contact with me for same.
Health Tips
Do the exercise twice a day. Continue doing it.