Hi,
I understand what you are trying to say, thinking, wondering about the answers to these questions of life We are born in this world of things unknown, the answers you find are through living, creating your own meaning, by doing things that bring you joy, peace and increase your sense of connection to the world around you.
The questions, the thoughts you have do not have immediate answers it is part of the human experience.
It is alright to reflect on deep questions periodically, it helps you live a more meaningful life. Checking in with yourself understanding your self, your sense of purpose, and your values.
However it will do you more good if you talk to a Psychologist, therapy offers a place to express yourself, understanding the underlying reasons of your thoughts. It will help guide and manage your thoughts.
Next Steps
Consult a Psychologist.
Health Tips
Choose to be positive, peaceful, happy in your space, use positive language, speech patterns, and , self care, focus on the present, be optimistic.
You can also try Journaling this can provide a lot of insight of your deepest thoughts, meditation and deep breathing exercises.