Hello Friend, Good that you are seeking a help here. When your are holding some many problems, obviously your mind will be distributed a lot. . In such suitations don't be conclusive and think about any hasty decisions.
What you are facing is surely a cureble problem. Your are facing anxiety and depression which is just like any physical illness and can be addressed through counseling session, few self therapies, lifestyle changes, dietary, excersise etc.
Don't hesitate to consult a Psychologist and ventilate your feelings, emotions and concerns. I am sure you will be able to see a different prepective about yourself and about your problems. Feel free to choose online consultation as it will be convenient and easy for you to approach.
Next Steps
Consult a psychologists directly or online. You can reach me online through Practo for further detailed evaluation and suitable solutions that you can follow practically. Be positive. You will be alright soon