Hi, don't hesitate to talk to some one you trust and know will understand you and do consult a psychologist/psychiatrist soon. The description you are giving are indicative of mental health issues and needs more understanding to better help you cope. It would be best if you can consult a  professional at once. Good luck!

May be these issues are with you for so many and  not resolved. For every behaviour there is a reason behind it. You could have developed these due to some situations or because of some people which either u jv observed or Or told that u are so and so during your childhood or Adolescence. Don't worry,  these are couldn't be resolved.

Hi..... Take steps to control stress, to increase your resilience and boost your self-esteem. Reach out to family and friends, especially in times of crisis, to help you weather rough spells. Get treatment at the earliest sign of a problem to help prevent your symptoms from worsening. Consider getting long-term maintenance treatment to help preven,t a relapse of symptoms.....