I don't know why I use to think a lot even on the things that are not surely going to happend in a relationship . I am in relation with my teacher whom I love her as a mother and much more ... she is so imp for me that I want her to take my uppermost place in my life . Even my parents don't have guts to talk about my teacher , she also loves me a lot more than a student . Sometimes this leads to compare me with his child . I don't want to heart her at any case . I use to tell her all things not instantly but definitely. Sometimes I want to leave this world if I feel her hurtled by my words . She asks me to think less and enjoy life but I can't.