Hi. From the description that you have provided, it is very likely that you are suffering from symptoms of underlying social anxiety disorder. Since this is a treatable condition, you must seek help. Please consult a psychiatrist and get yourself evaluated. Treatment with medications and cognitive behavioural therapy will help. Keeping the treatment confidential is totally upto you. It will be your decision completely regarding if you want to share it with anyone.
Next Steps
Seek a psychiatric consultation.